5.31.2010

monday

i’m currently en route to portland from my visit to indiana.  just took off from minneapolis [layover] about half an hour ago.  funny how much thinking you can do in such a short period of time…
i have this bad habit of gluing my face to the window whenever i’m near a window in a plane while it takes off.  i’ve done it ever since I was a kid.  so, naturally, as the plane sped down the runway and into the sky, I squished my forehead up against the smudgy little window.  i’ve done this [literally] hundreds of times but, for some reason, the view from beyond that particular two-paned window caught me off guard.  the sun was just beginning to sink below the horizon.  the sky was a vivid purple and red and the earth beneath it seemed to be soaking in a deep golden glow.  scattered lakes glistened as they absorbed the last light of the day, the trees around them adding to the beauty of the scene, and even the towering buildings of downtown st. paul seemed beautiful as they gleamed against the sun.  much to my surprise, I found myself nearly breathless at its simple beauty.  as the plane sped on towards the west coast, i hurried to inhale as much of the scene as i could.  something on the distant ground below caught my eye and i watched the tiny specks of a cars as they traveled down the freeway.  i zoned in on one car and wondered about the people in it.  who were they?  where were they going?  what was their story?  the car was soon out of view, but my mind continued that train of thought as i gazed out over the city below: lines of houses, lit-up baseball fields, the large outlines of schools.  so many people call this city home.  i began to wonder about their lives.  what are their stories?  how many of them are happy and loved?  how many are heartbroken?  how many of them worship the same GOD that i do?  here I am, pouting over my trivial problems, but how blessed am i compared to so many of them? 

5.09.2010

sunday

there are some days when i can’t wait to be a mother. holding babies or playing with little kids usually makes me feel that way. there’s just something about children. maybe it’s because they start out so tiny and rely completely on someone else to take care of them. they require so much love and attention. after years of babysitting and stealing children for a day, i’ve learned a lot about what motherhood will be like. i know how to change diapers and how to make the crying stop. i know how to sing quietly and rock a baby to sleep. i’ve learned a lot of valuable things. and when you look at them and see past the maintenance that they require, you see this beautiful life and wonder what GOD has in store for them. you think about all that they’ll experience in their lifetime. how they will change the world. and then as they grow older, you watch them develop their own unique personality. they begin to smile and laugh. they start to take steps and become a little more self-dependent each day. they grow smarter and begin to morph into little troublemakers. they start to realize what their interests and talents are. their features become more permanent. and, before you know it, they’ve become a full-size human. as a mother, you love and nurture your child. you have so much influence on that little life. i know this because i see so much of my mine in me. and i know how she has impacted me in so many ways. happy mothers day, mom!

5.08.2010

saturday

1. i love creativity in [almost] every form. 
2. the only two constants in my life are GOD and my family. other than that, i'm all over the place. i enjoy randomness, adventures, and spontaneity.
3. sarcasm is an art.
4. i happen to love JESUS with all of my heart.
 [that's actually number 1]
 5. i like rain. i hate cold. i love sun.
6.   i laugh a lot. probably too much.
7. it's currently 1:56am. 
8. my favorite number is three.   
9. i usually stay up way too late and get up way too early. thank GOD someone invented the nap. and coffee.
[in fact, those two people should probably be awarded the nobel peace prize. 
because im sure that some pretty nasty, unpeaceful events would've occurred without those two things keeping sleep 
deprived people at bay.]
 10. when tired, i tend to ramble on about weird things that nobody cares about.
[like now]
11. bedtime?